Monday, January 23, 2017

Unofficially 22

22 seemed like an enormous number when I was still a high school kid.
At that moment I used to believe that whoever has reaches the age 20 is matured enough to make their own decisions,
Big enough to go out without their parents' permission anywhere and anytime they want,
Suitable age to get married,
The age where you never cry if something bothers you, you'll just pat yourself on the shoulder and life goes on.
Kiranya macam dah dewasa sangat lah.


Surprisingly, when I reach this age, everything is contrary to my previous beliefs haha!


Anyway, the starting days of 2017, weren't really good.


Have you ever experienced this?
You feel that you've performed all out to finish some projects, undergoing sleepless nights, you sacrifice a lot of time, dah lah terlepas tengok Lara Aishah, and then...some other people who are not even close to you, suddenly ask for your "projects", and you just cannot say no to them, and then, they get credited for the projects that at first, was your idea?


If I said no in the first place, was I being stingy? Or do I have the rights to actually be stingy?
This bothers me a lot :/
I am 22 and I still cannot say NO.
I want to do good deeds, I tried to be sincere when handling "it" to that person, but there's like a rock worth a tonne on my chest which blocks my sincerity.
And whenever we met, I couldn't help but saying "yes ok boleh je" with a smile engraved but a hypocritical one, with a hope that that person would sense my ungenuineness.


WEHHHHH TERASA JAHAT NI TOLONGGGG :'(


Despite all the negativity that I've encountered,
I'm so thankful I have my housemates to cheer me up sebab semua lawak lawak :D
I love them girls :')


By the way, I'm reaching my last days in Year 2 before proceeding with Semester 2 exams.
(Sekarang tengah study week)
Shortly after that, I'll be sitting for my Professional Exam 2.
Which is the exam that'll determine whether I am qualified to enter Year 3 or not.
Year 3 is once again, a new beginning and a new chapter of life, since it's my clinical year.
Kena pergi hospitals, kena drive, kena banyak independent, kena communicate a lot dgn patients and so on.
I have to go to either HTAR Klang / Hospital Kajang / Hospital Sungai Buloh based on the postings.
I think in Year 3 there'll be Pediatrics, OnGs, Surgery. (kot)
Hmm IDK, still feeling blurry with year 3
For now on, have to focus on Year 2 exams first!



And lagi satu,
I am soooo curious why our government choose to spend money on skyscrapers and weird projects rather than giving funds to needy students like us?
Kata doktor kurang tapi tak nak fund.


Peliknya Malaysia ni :')



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